Yeah. Finally met up with kelly, py, jordan and ks for dinner as well as celebrate py's very belated bday. went earlier before dinner to meet up with kelly to find for presents for py. Bought her a brown-pink stripes bikini. Think it suits her complexion and her personality. Not too striking and bright. also bought her a card and small strawberry shortcake. Hope py likes it very well. But we initially tot we could give her a surprise by going earlier and let all of us to write the card. But she came while we are all writing it. So funny. Ks had a hard time wondering what he shld be doing. In the end, we asked py to go to toliet while we contd writing. *grinz* Overall, a nice dinner, exclusive of my set of dinner i ordered. *blehz*

Following day, went to hospital very early in the morning. Ended up waiting till 2pm. Hurried went home to pack up more things and bought groceries. Stayed there till 8 plus to 9. Was too tired to think of anything except to fall asleep on sofa while watching tv. Went to discharge and back home. I dont wanna say this initially, cos i dun wan friends to know. Somehow, they all called me and ask me out for dinner or chiong. Had to reject all of them. cant bluff them so i have to tell them honestly. But they were all shocked and console me. Thanks friends for those consoling. It is just a minor thing. She is ok already. Im fine too.

Anyway, wei called me on mon asking me abt wed dinner. But i told her the truth and she told me another new too. So funny. Ytd night wei called me asking me hows mummy. Told her and chatted with her a while. Was shocked to answer her call cos it is near to 12midnightt. Normally she will sleep very early. But she made an effort to call me when she thought of it. Was very very glad to have such a buddy like her. Always there for me. While the happy me still awake, another pretty called me. She just got back from her trip and read my previous blog abt godma. She hurried called me and ask if im ok. But i told her now is my mum. She shocked and keep asking if im ok. U know what, it is those calls that make me realised im never alone. U all are with me all these while. Really very very happy to have u pretties as my darlings! Thanks so much, pretties!

Another good news! Jordan showed his co-partner the report that i did on sun. And the partner likes it so much that we are having a long term helping them to do reports. Thanks jordan for letting me know that there are companies who really need someone to do report. Never realised that my report is well liked by people. I thought what i did is normal but it gives me a sense of schievement. Im now part of dreamaccent with dearie. We are helping out as well as to help dreamaccent to expand to the fullest. We will succeed one day ok? Really happy to be able to work with them once again on project basis. We are not doing school project but to earn $ and work as a team again. Hope that we can work towards all our dreams! Jiayou wor~

Alright, shall do my work again. Tired already. Maybe will rest a while b4 i contd and do. In case i do wrong. *grinz* Take lovely care, people!

Ytd slept very late at around 2plus, and have to wake up at 730 to setup my laptop for my little ger cos she is having her elearning today. And have to stay awake cos her school does not even show them what they should do for e-learning. Instead, the teacher just gave them a piece of paper and ask them to follow those instructions. Gosh! They are not like those teenagers who frequently use computer for research, and yet they expected them to follow those not detailed information. Ger followed exactly like the paper she was given, but the instructions are totally different from the website. Imagine they ask them to do "interactive tutorials" whereby there isnt any word that spells that. I have to search thru the web and help her to find. Guess what? She didnt even know if she is doing the right thing. *faintz* She told me that the teacher just gave them the piece of paper that includes 4 subjects for the elearning. The students were not shown the actual place for assignments. And due to the lack of information, ger ignored and just contd to do what she can. *sigh*

And while she is doing, i took a nap cos im just too tired. And my uncle called my mum for shares thingy. And heard that my little ger cant find the information on website. Guess what my uncle said? He said that i should help her find cos im a DEGREE GRADUATE! This time, i am frustrated. I shouted back and said that degree graduate is just a graduate, also a human. It doesnt mean that a graduate of computing can know what the teacher wants the students to do with minimal information provided. I just dont understand them. I hate people saying that degree graduate will know WONDERS in the world. Yes, it is true that i am a computing graduate, but so what? There are thousands of computing graduate, and not necessary that study computing will know everything about computers. We are not the inventors of computers, we are just users who experience more than those doesnt use it often. I dont learn the internal computer materials, everything i know about computers is i learnt it from myself. Programming and designing are what i was taught but not those technical stuff. You must be wondering how come i reacted so strongly? Cos this is one of the problems faced in my family abt graduates. And i dislike the word graduates from then on. I just hate it. Degree graduates use their brain and hard work to earn the paper certifications with so much effort that strangers do not understand it until they tried it themself.

I guess my temper is a bit not very kind today. Maybe i had too little rest recently and maybe bcos now and then, i keep visiting clinics and hospitals till i feel the sadness reside in me. It is hard to convince myself that life still goes on. Just like i keep telling myself, “会离开的人总会离开, 如果我真的要离开，我在你的记忆里的一切都是最真的我。 ”

*If only i don't grow up, those people i missed will be with me, right?"

Recently been going out with mum and dearie on weekends. Just recalled me going for a day cruise with mum and aunts and uncles. The cruise is one day cos it is considered as a "gambling" cruise, but to me, i guess it is a pirate ship. *blehz* Gamble jackpot for $10 and ended up losing it. Mum played table games, but none of the games she played won. So unlucky ah? So we concluded it is a pirate ship instead. But still, a experience is there, so doesnt matter. *grinz*

Over the weekends, went for movie and arcade gaming with dearie. Was fun though this time round we didnt won any prizes. But still, the excitement is there. Dearie still wanna play the UFO catcher in all areas in singapore. 陪你到底！Vesak day is my praying day too. Went for praying in many areas with mum, aunts, uncles and littles ones. And headed off to my relatives' wedding dinner. The moments in the wedding ceremony makes me wanna make my sis wedding to be very unique. Every couple always wishes to be blessed with those who care. so i will definitely design sth that my sis will be happy for her special day. But i wont disclosed what i will do here, incase she accidentally saw this blog of mine. *grinz*

Just brought my godma for checkup. This is my first time to bring her out. The first time i give her a ride ever since i passed my driving. The first time i saw the tiring her. The first time i held her hands when walking. I know this is life. But i just cant convince myself to believe that the people ard me grows older each day when i became adult. This is the first time i strongly feel that i dont wanna to grow up, cos i fear the feeling of my loved ones leaving me. The feeling is undescrible. *sigh* Hopefully she will stay strong and maybe tahan through those sufferings she had now. *prayz*

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Hmm.. i guess i have said enough. Now going to pick up my little ones from school. Guess they will be happier to come to my place cos they can game all they wan. *blehz* Shall update soon. Take care and drink more water people!

So fast, it is already mid month of may. I didnt realised it until i began writing this post and looked at the calendar. Currently, posting up my glemz products on yahoo and livejournal 'cos new products are always added to my collection. Yes, i have more than 20 items for just Japan products. So get from me if you are interested in either one of them. Will definitely give u a better price. Anyway, just sold one of my dresses to a nice lady who is shown her appreciation to me and sis. Hope she likes the dress and fit her. =p

Talking about my godma. She is back from 1month stay hospital. I went to visit her ytd. This is the first time i went into her master bedroom, not explaining when im young. In fact, ever since i have maid when im in kindergarden, i no longer went over her place to play with godsister. It is like years. but still, i still talked to them. Must be wondering why she is my godma whereby she is my neighbour too, right. Since young, my mum has to work from day to night. No time to look after me. We cant afford to have maid as we have no $. so my godma and her mother-in-law looked after me. I became very close to them. Maybe is bcos from the time i wake up from bed, i will be at their place till at night when sister will pick me up from there. Popo will cook for me to eat. Most of the food are also what i like to eat till now. But the taste i eat wasnt the same as what i ate then. Still remember i always went over to their place for breakfast, lunch and at times dinner. They treated me like a little girl who needs lots of attention and love. I enjoyed most of my childhood times there. Popo passed away when im in secondary school. She had heart disease and old at that time. And the shocking thing is that, she has heart attack at home bcos the cats ard my area went into her house and gave her a fright. That explains why i am so scared of cats. From then, i hate cats alot. They took popo away from me. And guess what, i passed my o's levels english cos i wrote abt the incident about cats. *grinz*

Now godma is having kidney cancer. No medicine can cure her. That explains why the doctor refused to have her in hospital. Gave her the strongest medicine but it just cant control the spread. If only she realised is her kidney not her heart problem jiu hao. Anyway, went over to do visiting. I controlled my tears from rolling when i saw her lying on the bed. This is the first time i saw her lying down on the bed while talking to me. She held my hands when i sat beside her. She keeps thanking me saying that my family is very concerned her. She is too weak to hold my hands tight. She looks thin. She looks restless. She contd saying that, "having a god-daughter is very good. " I nearly teared, but controlled it. She knew her condition but trying to stay strong in front of me. I chatted with godma abt my future. She encouraged me to go and fight for my bright future. She still say im young to fiight for what i can. But most imptly, is to take good care of my health. Not long after, godsister's cousin came. Godma got up from bed and walked very slowly. She is like dragging her feets away. But managed to walk to the living room. And i left.

The past memories started to flow into my mind. I fully understand the word of just simple life and simple happiness i had when im young. No worries, no evil thoughts. Just purely a simple mind with simple smile. This is the true meaning of happiness. Happiness wasnt the monetary word, but the feeling that it gave it to you. I started to think even more. My past and my present. The wrongs that i have done. The evil-ness i had in my heart. It is so true of the phrasing that, we will only show our trueself when we are with our closest kin. Just take for example, i will throw my temper to my family and bf. But i will nv throw my temper on friends, except my closest ones. But a word of sorry to friends is so easy, but the word is so difficult when it came to saying it to ur family and bf. How many times have i said the word sorry whenever i knew it is my mistake to my family? How many times have i said the word thanks to my family? The number is little, but be it there is such a word to them, they will forever be there to love and forget and forgive what you have said or done. This doesnt need monetary, but just a simple love showing to you without obligations.

I really appreciate my family actions. They really show their love to me always. Just like when im down, they will be there for me when i need them. Be it my r/s or school work, they are the ones who will be there for me. Just that i do not know how to show my appreciation. It applies similar to the guys in my house. They dont show their concern to me very explicitly, but do it in a manner that i can feel they care. Thanks for everything you have done.

*It is always when you started to lose something and realised the importance of that thing.*

Basically, ytd i were working on releasing out the new products from japanese the whole day. Edited the pictures to prevent ppl from getting from me. I like my banner though. Got the Japanese feeling. My marketing executive, Dearie, helps me to do tagging and the rest. He needs to work full time on weekends. *lolx* Anyway, glemz is updated already. Will add in more products in future. For friends who wish to buy from me, can call or drop me a sms will do. Dont need to follow the order format. Good privileges given. *grinz*

Congrats to my pretty ger, lin on her success for her presentation ytd. she gave me a call after her lesson. but ya, im not the first person she called. *ah bish* Im happy for u ger. This proves that i got pray for u sincerely hor. Hurry thank me and give me a big kiss. *lolx* And she added on saying that she is free for shopping. My head! U busy pei Mickey where got the time to pei me? *lolx* But must meet me soon hor.

Alright, shall keep it short and sweet today. Thursday already. Able to see dearie. Just tahan for 2 more days. Hee. Bye.


*Loving the feeling of missing*

Seems like day by day goes very fast before i knew it. Ytd was blogging and now i am already blogging again. So fast~

Anyway, ytd went to meet up with my supplier abt the Japanese products that i will be bringing back and selling on my website. Hopefully the response is okay. Btw, for those who doesn't know, i will be selling beauty products from Japan such as Fancl, DHC (very popular in Asia), All natural way and many others. (check out my website by clicking on the 'Glamourous Glemz' at the side of this blog for more details *blehz*) Will be updating by today, i hope.

Was chatting with Jordan abt his biz as well as mine. He really is a workaholic. work thru the nights straight after our exams. He is a freelance web designer (ask me for his contact if you wan to have ur website or whatever things to be design. *highly recommended*). Actually, im determined to contd my biz bcos of his encouragement and support. Cos he made me realised that no one is able to be rich or success without hard effort. All thanks to him and i slowly make my way to branch out more things to sell. (Though very slow response but im contented and inspired to succeed one day *grinz*) He also made me realised that dreams can come true as long as you endure all those hardships. he is also my money sourcer, giving me opportunity to earn money also. *lolx* Thanks Jordan! Oh ya, my sis wedding flash video will be having him to assist me thru-out. I knew it will be a success. So we will jiayou together in maybe, a mths time? *lolx*

I were reading dearie's blog and realised that he is blogging about chinese name. Yes, his name is very unique in such a way that the first time i knew him i said his name until quite awful. *lolx* (ya la, i lousy in chinese *humph*) And he likes my sister name instead of mine. *ah bish* But in fact, chinese name does have its meaning to one's personality or charactor. Just like my uncles in my Huang family. Every name has its meaning and i find it very meaningful when my elderest uncle told me that one day. Surprised! As for my name, being a girl in Huang, my grandpa will choose names for Huang Family grandson, staring with 'Hui 惠'. (Traditional man~ *grinz*) But for my dad, he doesnt want to obey or disobey his dad's permission. So he choose the same 'Hui' but different writing '慧' for his daughters and the '惠' for my brother. Our names are specially chosen by dad himself. So maybe this is the only thing that my dad left behind for the 3 of us to remember him, esp me whereby i have little idea of his presence ever since im born.

One of my pretties is having her fyp presentation today. I hope that she can relax herself and best of luck to her. (Don't worry too much. I support you man! *grinz*) And the other pretty of mine is undergoing stress at work, cos she has to make a serious decision. Hopefully the decision that you made wont let u regret for the rest of ur life. I know you will definitely not regret of what you did always. Anyway, adding on, i miss you gers so much. Shall meet up soon ok. (yes, after one of them pei bf finish then it will be my turn. *lolx*)

Alright, ending here and going to do my biz stuff. Take care people~

*Cherish the times together, be it sad or happy*

As the title spells, it is already 五月 (May). Time flies and i have been relaxing for the past 2 weeks. However, last wk i were occupied with activities throughout the whole wk. Enjoying life, enjoying eating, enjoying shopping.

Where did i stop last blog? Let me recalled. Oh ya, i stopped after i went to watch a play with dearie. Then the rest of my days staying at home till weekends come whereby my dearie nv work can pei me out. Sat we went to bugis for shopping. Initially we thought of going to people park to check out the pricing for our trips but too lazy liao la. So went to bugis instead. Went to pray first. Got myself a lucky lot. Hopefully it will come true as what it says. *pray* Headed down to bugis street for shopping spree. Such a long while i havent been shopping. (cos im studying hard *blehz*) Always wanna buy a black bangle for myself after i saw my cousin wearing it. I like it. So hunt at bugis even though i saw other places selling it. (More expensive though *grinz*) Past by all shops and saw alot of shops selling those shirt kind top. The dress that i saw at parkway parade with dearie is also selling at bugis street. Asked for the price. And it costs $10 instead of $25. See the difference between bugis and other places? *grinz* In the end, didnt bought the dress but a shirt instead (wore the next day *opps*). Also bought a black watch and found my black bracelet. I love black accessories. *lolx*

Headed down to PS for carl junior. Dearie promised to bring me to eat there one day but before that day, he already ate with his colleagues. And i pestered him saying he nv eat w me. His 第一次gave to his colleagues. *lolx* But still, we managed to eat since he promised me all these while. *evil smile* As usual went to arcade to try luck. Played alot of games as usual. Dearie dont give up to catch 七仔 for me. So he tried several times but none at all. So he asked me to catch instead. And by using $2, i won 七仔. Yeah! So lihai me. Dearie was so shocked when 七仔 fall to the hole of the machine. I was stunned initially. So happy. this is my first time i catch it by myself. So wanna tried again to catch one for dearie instead. Spent $5 but still cant. Maybe is fate to let me catch it for myself. *grinz* Nothing much to do. Headed home quite early but we slept late playing game like real life "street fighter".

Sunday morning wake up read newspapers. And as usual, nothing much. Playing stupid games such as scissor,paper,stone and five-ten. used 七仔 as a weapon to hit the loser. Normal routine games trigger us to think of implementing more games inside. So we played five-ten together with pepsi-cola123. damn hard to coordinate well. So funny. Added kungfu tricks also. Everything is so funny. But we enjoyed ourselves alot alot. Hurried to bath when mummy woke up cos we have to attend buffet for my materal side mothers' day at merchant court. After eating, the whole group of my family went to walk ard at clarke quay to watch the bungy jump. My cousin and 2 uncles went to try it out. So scary~ and we all crowded ard the area to support them. Headed down to dearie's place to drink soup. Yummy! Play games at dearie place as usual and chatted with his mum and bro. His bro is indeed so funny. *grinz*

Alright, the pics are uploaded to mark my blog for today. Shall update soon. Going out with mummy later. Good bye!

~DarS~

~DarS with 七仔~

*Happiness lie on your own hands*

Long time since i nv update my blog. And here i am! Firstly, i must announce that i am graduated, but not officially. My exams are over, and this applies same to my sch life. Everything is over. My 16 years of studying life is over. Waiting for my graduation ceremony due in July. *grinz*

Alright, shall summarise the things i have done after the day i finished my last paper, CS3254. After paper, went to meet dearie for dinner. Had dinner at his place cos he wanna save money and also, his mum cooked my fav soup on sun but i didnt went over. So i think there is a need to go since i didnt see his mum and bro for a week. And to my surprise, there are alot of dishes for us. (Dearie, bcos of me. Must thank me ah~ *blehz*) And headed home after a heartwarming talk with his mama.

Next day morning, did housework as well as mum accounts. Had a full day of work. Tired and very tired. Such a long while since i do housework. Doing mum accounts required brain to react fast and eye power. But managed to finish it b4 i went out. else sure cant go out in peace. And off i went to tampines mall to have dinner with dearie before watching "forbidden kingdom" with kayv they all. I guess i were just too unlucky. My bus broke down on my way to Tampines. And i'm already late on meeting dearie. So frustrating! And waited for another bus like 20 mins. *gosh* And dearie still commented saying i save on bus fare cos sbs gave me complimentary ride. *ah bish* Ate at phin's steakhouse. Not bad but still prefer bugis one. The show is ok but the guys dont like the show, thinking that they shld speak in mandarin instead. But as a overall, it is funny i guess.

Labour day. Had internation buffet lunch with mum, uncle, granny, sis, sis-in-law, dearie at Roxy hotel to celebrate mothers' day. I know still early, but next wk will be very crowded. The food is okay, but the pastries are not up to mum and dearie expectations. I like the chocolate fondue. And the funny thing is, uncle initially saw the fondue. So i made a marshmallow dip for him. And he likes it so much. (Yes, he is like a little guy who loves chocolate despite his senior citizen age. *blehz*) So made another one for him. He keeps saying he cant eat anymore. But he still contd to take food and said that he wanna share with granny. (Excuses la~) And mum ate till she cant take it anymore. so funny. All the rest cant take it anymore, but dearie and i still contd eating pastries. I like the durian paste. Yummy!

After lunch, all thanks to sis and sis-in-law, dearie and i have to take transport on our own. (Not enough seats! *ah bish*) They headed to my auntie place while dearie and i went to parkway parade to walk ard. And headed to suntec to aracade session. *Usual hangout* Played the catchy game again. Dearie didnt give up. He tried alot of times and didnt win anything. But it is okay. Played king of fighters and aeroplane game with dearie. So funny. i keep shouting cos i keep losing. *humph*

Hurried to national library for our play, Broadway beng 3. we missed the part 1 and 2. So managed to get 3 for dearie bday present this yr. Was anticipating for this hokkien+chinese+english play for a long while. So happy to be able to watch it. And the play is excellent. Laugh alot. For those who wanna watch, you must be able to understand basic hokkien and some "interesting" words. But recommended to watch it. Truly it is a very good show.

~Before the show outside National Library~

~dearie looking at his hp~

~Our tickets~

~Just before the show #1~

~Just before the show #2~

~Inside the threate. Took secretly~

And for today activities. I guess i will head down to do visiting of my cousin. Heard her stuff from her dearest sister. I think there is a need to talk to her. Quite upset on hearing, but i have to stay calm in order to solve situation. My heart goes to my cousin. Hope she will be alright. *pray hard*

Alright, i shall end off now before i become more long winded. Take care guys. And for those having exams, best of luck!

*Happiness is not by smiling, is the feeling that reside in your heart*