Ytd slept very late at around 2plus, and have to wake up at 730 to setup my laptop for my little ger cos she is having her elearning today. And have to stay awake cos her school does not even show them what they should do for e-learning. Instead, the teacher just gave them a piece of paper and ask them to follow those instructions. Gosh! They are not like those teenagers who frequently use computer for research, and yet they expected them to follow those not detailed information. Ger followed exactly like the paper she was given, but the instructions are totally different from the website. Imagine they ask them to do "interactive tutorials" whereby there isnt any word that spells that. I have to search thru the web and help her to find. Guess what? She didnt even know if she is doing the right thing. *faintz* She told me that the teacher just gave them the piece of paper that includes 4 subjects for the elearning. The students were not shown the actual place for assignments. And due to the lack of information, ger ignored and just contd to do what she can. *sigh*

And while she is doing, i took a nap cos im just too tired. And my uncle called my mum for shares thingy. And heard that my little ger cant find the information on website. Guess what my uncle said? He said that i should help her find cos im a DEGREE GRADUATE! This time, i am frustrated. I shouted back and said that degree graduate is just a graduate, also a human. It doesnt mean that a graduate of computing can know what the teacher wants the students to do with minimal information provided. I just dont understand them. I hate people saying that degree graduate will know WONDERS in the world. Yes, it is true that i am a computing graduate, but so what? There are thousands of computing graduate, and not necessary that study computing will know everything about computers. We are not the inventors of computers, we are just users who experience more than those doesnt use it often. I dont learn the internal computer materials, everything i know about computers is i learnt it from myself. Programming and designing are what i was taught but not those technical stuff. You must be wondering how come i reacted so strongly? Cos this is one of the problems faced in my family abt graduates. And i dislike the word graduates from then on. I just hate it. Degree graduates use their brain and hard work to earn the paper certifications with so much effort that strangers do not understand it until they tried it themself.

I guess my temper is a bit not very kind today. Maybe i had too little rest recently and maybe bcos now and then, i keep visiting clinics and hospitals till i feel the sadness reside in me. It is hard to convince myself that life still goes on. Just like i keep telling myself, “会离开的人总会离开, 如果我真的要离开，我在你的记忆里的一切都是最真的我。 ”

*If only i don't grow up, those people i missed will be with me, right?"